August 22, 2016
It has been a while since the last share - much has shifted and sorted itself in the move from Massachusetts to Arizona. And, I feel blessed to be where I am at in my life, having let go more and more of the "expectations" of life to answer "a calling". The hardest thing has been leaving my mother and six siblings, 4 nieces, and a nephew who are mostly in Boston. It has been hard to leave my yoga community that I grew up with at Gold's Gym Arlington. And it brought forth all of the different communities I have been so blessed to share time. This homesickness was so overwhelming I thought I might truly drown from sadness. Somehow though, I weathered this much like that caterpillar turning itself into caterpillar soup on its way to transform to a butterfly, getting on my mat at a yoga studio in Cottonwood and Sedona, and continuing to open up my body-mind-spirit that has been instinctively aching to be what it was meant to be.
Now, having pressed against the cocoon casing, that strait-jacket that gave me a sense that something needed changing, it feels so amazing to spread wings, to open the door, and to see the mountains that are my new home. Though this new environment has and will have its own challenges, I find myself calmer, closer to nature, closer to myself.
September 8, 2015
Change happens every moment of every day, sometimes in subtle ways, sometimes in larger ways. Still, many of us find ourselves socialized to be afraid of change as if it was a bear that we have met on a walk in the woods. If we can remember that we have actually weathered, and possibly found ourselves enjoying change, we realize that we can decide which response serves us best. Sometimes we need to be afraid, look under that stone and ask ourselves what it is we are so afraid of. Other times, we experience fear, and realize that we can receive it like a giant wave, the kind of wave a surfer spends much time waiting for, a wave that transforms from fear into excitement as we lean into it and find ourselves elated at the idea that we are no longer the surfer, but the wave. As we embrace change, we allow for each shift to be what it was always meant to be, a dry day giving way to rain, the rain changing pace, a torrential downpour that swirls into a mini tornado, a tornado that dissipates having laid flat all that was previously created, a re-creating of what was laid flat. What if change simply allows us to see that we may not have needed to hold on so tightly? What does it feel like to surf on the flow of life, trusting that everything we know and have experienced to date is enough when blended with our trust in ourselves, our intuition?
September 2, 2015
We move every day on both gross and subtle levels depending on our circumstance. Many of us who are able-bodied though, we are not getting enough of the gross or varied subtle movements that allow us to connect in to our full experience. We are overly focused on the subtle movements of tapping at our keyboards, our mobile phones, tilting our head to look at our phone which is down in our lap. Why not try adding small adjustments that allow for more muscles to be engaged? If you have a sitting set up, stand and stretch and move your chin back tipping it towards the chest. Take a deep breath in. Sit. Resume. In 20 minutes, why not change it up and step into crescent lunge, feel into the bottoms of the feet, lift the heels and set them back down, feeling the engagement of the smaller muscles that extend from the set of larger muscles.
August 30, 2015
Movement can happen on many levels from voluntary to involuntary, from gross movement to subtle. We take movement for granted, particularly those of us who are able bodied. Some of us thrive on the experience of movement so much that we go to great extremes to test our strength and endurance. As younger people, there are less limitations. As we move into adulthood, the ways we pushed ourselves begin to take a toll from micro-trauma, cumulative effect from simple acts of daily training or living over long periods of time (weeks, months, or years) lead to pain and dysfunction. Feelings associated with prior training and movement can make it difficult to realize that we may need outside help and perspective to restore and re-vitalize how we experience our bodies in the present day.
August 25, 2015
What if less truly is more? We are so socialized in our society to do more, be more, go 110%, leading to burnout, repetitive strain on so many levels. What if we didn't train and play one sport all year long, added other ways to move and be in movement? What if moving in other ways, in different speeds, with different intensity allows breath and space into our bodies, our mind, allows us to connect to our spirit? What if there is another way to be into who we each are?
August 18, 2015
Ah!! The mat, the room, the heat, the practice. There is nothing, nothing like a place away from the usual pulls of life: home, work, to do lists. There is nothing like a place that is so powerfully simple, and that allows one to find that everything that a person needs is right there. Move, strike a pose, do any part of it, feel everything, then let it go, shift, ground, grow, spiral, unwind, be, perhaps hum?
August 12, 2015:
"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." - Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
If you want something, want it in a big way. If you want in a big way, it asks you let go of everything you realize you do not want or that no longer serves you, so your hands are finally open to receive all that has always been waiting for you to receive. We oftentimes find that we have filled our hands with how happiness is supposed to look, we get attached to material things to reassure ourselves. We believe that these things are who we are. When we want something in a big way, it asks that we let go of these attachments, and learn all over again, how to tap in to trusting oneself. Trusting oneself may bring up more fear, but the difference is that it is fear based on something new - a fear that allows for growth.
August 7, 2015:
What if you could "let go"? Let go of doubt, self-consciousness, worry and concern about what others think of you, fear, need of perfection, negative messages about yourself? What if instead, you could move towards that which interests you, inspires you? What if you moved towards expansion, creativity, kindness towards self, love. What would our lives look like? What would our world look like?